"I don't think they knew the impact it was having but it was destroying me inside oh my God sorry I didn't expect for this to happen um what is up daddy gang [Music] the most listened to female podcast..."

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"development as a human being when she asked you how you were feeling when you were a kid were you always honest with her no oh God no I was really um I had a hard time with like wanting to make my par..."

"that yeah I I actually found like a journal I'm not crying but my I just will not stop watering or maybe I am um I found a journal of mine it was so [ __ ] sad to read I was really going through a har..."

"that go the younger version of Alex in therapy and stuff too yeah um it's been weird because our job is so weird where like I remember do we have a tissue sorry no you're fine I'm like whoa I didn't e..."

"and I think it's really detrimental when you're at an age where like all you care about is peer approval all you care about is people liking you and so I think the part of me that like yes hated mysel..."

"um and then I think the The Loner thing like I've had so many I had a lot of issues in romantic relationships where I would be like in love with someone but they would be like what I didn't even know ..."

"I've actually I feel like I've never met a person who has managed to take that early upbringing the early adverse are bringing to zero I've never met the person yeah I'm guessing you've made progress ..."

"could feel for a minute like I I am this boss like I am this like strong Confident Woman um and so creating content for me was like this outlet that allowed me to almost like become the thing that int..."

"you to become Alex when you're on camera off camera in school in Social settings wherever you go well at first it wasn't changing my life and my therapist was like had a hard conversation with me I th..."

"like get in there and I eventually I didn't I didn't even say anything in that session I was like I don't know like I'm telling you the truth and then weirdly that was when I ended up opening up on my..."

"um about like the last year or so that I had a co-host I was really struggling um and I was like my mom kept being like I need to be your mom I can't be your therapist like you you need to talk to som..."

"where I was living with someone I was doing business with we were struggling with business like there were so many things happening and I was how do I say this I was struggling to take care of myself ..."

"like it was so unhealthy um for both of us and uh I think psychologically yes I even think physically it was taking a toll on me um and then it was also taking a toll on my other relationships because..."

"had told me that I had to live through it because I worked my hor my whole life for this like I finally got the show and I was producing and I was doing what I loved but I then started to hate it and ..."

"business is so there's so many different layers it's so so complicated even if it's just you so then add another person in it's almost impossible and I think like it was so difficult my partner and I ..."

"to do you want to be there with them or for yourself are you willing to get there and sacrifice certain things in your personal life to get there like whether it's a duo or a singular person like you ..."

"you didn't think like this um so there's gonna be a lot of people listening that are either starting out in the business Journeys that really need to get into that difficult mindset the thing is what ..."

"the way that I'm handling business who I'm surrounding myself with how I'm hiring um you know who touches the product like there's everything now I've formulated and I think a lot of people think like..."

"conversation we had a little bit a while ago about aligning and communicating what you want from the jump so that further down the line you don't mess things up and regret it requires a difficult conv..."

"but I just know that I was proud of myself that I did I know I'm a good person but when you see the internet picking sides or doing this like it [ __ ] with you and I imagine for her it [ __ ] with he..."

"well but I think we're both like in a beautiful way I I said this to someone recently I was like it's so much better that we're both doing our own things like that's the same thing in like romantic re..."

"cool hey Daddy you tell me where the boundaries are here but how big is this show you know it's difficult it's difficult to get an idea of it because it's kind of a black box the way it operates in Sp..."

"yeah and I was like really like that's so cool like I I we didn't have like a concept I don't think yet so it went viral so fast and again that goes back to like there was no plan like I knew in my mi..."

"like don't tell me that because it's like what it's crazy why the most listened to female podcast in the world hundreds of millions of downloads every month there's millions of podcasts out there I th..."

"sometimes in the Creator world like it gets a little disconnected because we also are trying to run businesses right and you can't always do everything for your fans like I can say I have been in huge..."

"doodly episodes no you've never delete one episode no never recorded an episode and thought oh I've deleted them like not published them but like if I've published it I've never deleted it oh yeah so ..."

"is what I'm supposed to be doing you touched a little bit there on the cost though that people don't see the sacrifice families relationships all these other things part of the reason I started the sh..."

"I'm like I have to fire you and then it's like well are you gonna go tweet about me you you know it's like so strange where most companies like this that person wouldn't be a public-facing person so l..."

"like that was mean or that was but it was all like I don't think people understand like we were being rewarded by how much crazier it was every week it was like if you get crazier the views go up the ..."

"out um has ever crossed your mind being someone who publishes a lot of content and does it frequently at a certain Cadence you have a community that are expecting it from you that you probably can't s..."

"if it's just you talking it's it's like almost insane like you're gonna start doing things you're gonna start putting yourself in situations to get content to talk about things and I started to be lik..."

"[ __ ] actually matters like who gives a [ __ ] about a purse like you could lose it like I want to have real relationships I want to be close with my family I want to be respectful of people I'm arou..."

"but but it's hard like I think if you're in a relationship it's not to say that you there's going to be moments where your partner's down you're up financially um where they're at in their career thei..."

"want that doesn't work for me because I'm a very passionate person where like I I've been on dates with guys where I'm like I get it like you're you don't feel when I'm I'm like electric when I talk a..."

"I've taken about 60 of them out but I've picked a couple for you okay so I'm gonna slide it across the table all right Stephen here we go and I would like you to pick a question out of the the convers..."

"loving someone going through grief loss death with them going through moments of Disconnect moments of not knowing if it was gonna work out like I felt such pain in moments but also such happiness and..."

"which is so crazy if anything I wish I could have shown my younger self in those really really dark moments like [ __ ] you got this like look what you're about to do like just wait hang in there I th..."

"in the Diary of a CEO we have hundreds of questions that have been left by our guests and we've put them on these cards and on these cards you have the question that's been left in the diver CEO the n..."

"watch and see you've achieved so much you know it's funny because when I was you know thinking about this new Venture that you're going to be launching um something you said earlier was really thought..."

"I'd heard someone a young member of my team say that they in some respects felt like they're kind of Faking it but they needed to fake it to get the value that they deserve and I reflect on that I thi..."

"you take a little minute for yourself like come up with something then when you're walking into these rooms you can allow that to kind of be your compass I know there's so many things for call her dad..."

"even have like a hey can I pick your mind for like a little bit like let's go to a coffee I just have like some questions I want to ask you all of a sudden you're gonna leave there and you're gonna ei..."

"what else can I produce [Music] sounds like a media company or something or a studio the Alex Cooper I don't know Steven that was a long sip shark gold thing and keep drinking what's your next questio..."

"this is really weird but I actually was I had something that was hindering my life a little bit and my happiness and I spent the whole past weekend just trying to figure out like how do I can I say th..."

"the first time just kind of ended a relationship with um a friend it was really just like negative and toxic and it just was like why is I I felt that like weight that you're like oh my God I'm waking..."

"cheers not easy not easy difficult conversations you know people ask me this question all the time because I'm a podcaster they always say and I'm sure you get asked this so often that you're [ __ ] s..."

"even fully thought out because I feel like the show does a great job of holding someone in a space of like we'll work through it like say it and then let's like backtrack and and I'm never gonna let s..."

"line in terms of earlier on you said it took you a while to share with your audience that you had been bullied when you were younger do you still have things now where you go I'm not quite ready to sh..."

"I think um okay so the the question I'm going to ask you then seeing as you challenge me and this is my last question to you is it's actually one of those cards in there it says I I reflected on it wh..."

"it will be the first one there's anyone in there oh oh no [Laughter] tell me something you have never told anyone before oh I'm gonna have to sit here for an hour and think about this I as you know I ..."

"at times like I don't think I've ever said that out loud to anyone because I think I come off with like a lot of confidence and I'm I love what I do but like it it's scary in moments um how do I expla..."

"it's really [ __ ] scary how much every week I just keep putting myself out there and I it's almost like there's no time to stop and like Wonder like am I is this what I should be doing or would I be ..."

"which I know is like oh boo who you chose this but like it's really [ __ ] weird having millions of people watching you listening to you taking your advice lit like living out what you're telling them..."

"feel like that is who I am but like is that who I am like you have to perform when you're in front of this microphone like I'm not talking all day contrary to what I've said I'd never shut the [ __ ] ..."

"one you're like oh my God oh my God and it's like not a normal job to have to be like please please please give give give give oh my God be better be better get the next one like make it make sure it ..."

"very happy and if you would ask me that like eight months ago I'd be like no so I'm happy I'm just constantly in my head thinking like I can't stop it's like 2 A.M and I'm like picking up my phone wri..."