"I I couldn't scream loud enough there's nothing I could do to make it go away or to make them stop I I didn't are UK talking about this um can we take a break Mia Khalifa Mia Khalifa Mia Khalifa Mia K..."

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"I'm going after the things I actually want and I'm growing into my confidence and the self-assurance that I've gained from from doing the things I love and accomplishing my goals has formed who I am a..."

"yeah even in interviews five years ago when they would ask me where do you see yourself in five years I would always say I have no [ __ ] clue I don't know where I see myself next week and what change..."

"confident enough I mean it does it's not even coming to America it's being in Lebanon there was colorism there I was the darkest one in my family there was colorism at the school that I was at um I fe..."

"teen years I was very hard on myself um I was very angry at myself for not fitting in and for not being a certain way and um yeah just I did not like myself I didn't like the reflection in the mirror ..."

"someone who is a habitual boundary Crosser with themselves and with other people like it's there's there's a spectrum to it I would say it was definitely a people pleaser I also sought validation from..."

"the first one was getting into a relationship that I never should have been in with someone who was extremely abusive extremely dangerous in the sense that looking back on it and and having the self-a..."

"again where do you see me in five years like I I didn't have a sense of self so I attached myself to someone who was more than happy to abuse that and someone who could see that and see someone easily..."

"So when you say like this this you know this person clearly took advantage of several things that were present in you whether that was low self-esteem or um you know just general inexperience and naiv..."

"encouraged it and they encouraged it oh very much so your husband yeah struggle to understand this how so your husband when you're 18 years old is encouraging you towards the adult entertainment indus..."

"best out of you because you don't want that for yourself what were they getting out of it are you doing that you accepting the invitation from that business card what did they stand to gain from that ..."

"take offense to I did I did a while ago but I don't take offense to it or I don't feel like my name's actually Sarah it's either or you probably could Sarah I do yeah yeah okay um so that's Sarah thro..."

"I've heard you talk about weight loss and weight related issues attached to the self-esteem conversation what role did your weight play in um all of this and the self-esteem and the confidence and Bod..."

"grounded every week I have to sit down and analyze myself my my thoughts my past like I have to dig down and actually come face to face with the decisions I've made the my ways of thinking my my relat..."

"self-esteem I had no boundaries with myself I didn't respect myself I didn't like myself so many things were wrong with me and all of these things anyone can work on it's hot it is it is hard though i..."

"reality was or or the fact that wow this is actually a really situation this person that I love who's supposed to support me who's supposed to be there for me was actually not that great in Heinz not ..."

"next day week month post that [ __ ] loneliness I was living in an efficiency in inefficiency is not even a studio it's where this rug cuts off to that wall that is wider than what it was but definite..."

"back to that and standing firm on my ground in my morals in my boundaries in just everything that that was like the tiniest glimmer of confidence starting to grow standing firm in my boundaries even i..."

"so so so grateful that I was able to get out that first domino falling which took you to Austin in that new Direction was there a catalyst was there something that pushed that Domino because I noticed..."

"posts memes I like them vice versa um he her and I were talking about something oh she said I'm looking for a roommate I'm asking around the office for a roommate and I said what if I moved to Austin ..."

"very atypical experience because you went from obscurity to to number one in an industry in in weeks yeah so you you got hit by a [ __ ] truck yeah okay that makes sense okay you become a paralegal ye..."

"recognized me it was a very uncomfortable work environment not because not because anyone was overtly inappropriate it was just simply being in an office knowing anyone who walked through did Double T..."

"has that been a big part of your life for much of your life yes very much so and I think that has been prevalent from the very beginning the very beginning is in since you were a kid or a teenager or ..."

"I'm a jumpy person probably because of that when was your anxiety at its highest 2019-2020 okay so that's post Austin oh yeah yeah it was when it was post everything but it was in the midst of uh the ..."

"over me because I signed a contract that says in perpetuity on it your life had had started to move oh yeah I was married again I'm married again 2019. you're where are you living at this point I was ..."

"for that moment and I'm so upset that that moment was kind of overshadowed by all of the negativity that came from um the the porn company in the subsequent months the porn company um coming after you..."

"I think they're threatened by like you said earlier most people in my position aren't in my position because they this is the outcome that the girls want who enter the industry most of them who entere..."

"as someone who is a Creator or as someone who is simply a consumer there are ethical ways to do it granted any company has its downsides like even only fans has trouble policing and and regulating the..."

"to be honest with you I think that that rhetoric is grooming I think that if you're going to enter the industry and you're going to be an advocate for it it has to it has to come with a caveat and tha..."

"kind of like implications clearly stated to people that are considering entering the porn industry at a young age and the opportunity to have a lawyer or at least legal representation to impartially e..."

"body they still own the website with your name with your yeah there's nothing you can do to have that website taken down I mean there is but it's a very expensive lawsuit against a billion dollar Corp..."

"if I if I went on and actually spoke about how how much it impacted me that's that's what they would want that that's that's exactly what they would want they were very annoyed that I started naming t..."

"that is why they chose to release the video that the footage was corrupted of 10 years ago that's that was a pornographic video yeah okay so they started releasing more videos because she was speaking..."

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"another word different to anxiety in many respects people often characterize it with like thoughts of the past and they think of anxiety as worries of the future um depression is another word that I r..."

"um deep fakes and things like that because that feeling of of being violated all over again and having no control like it's like trying to run in a dream as hard as you as you try it's it's impossible..."

"again so what's life like I joined a TV show so uh things change for me you know people start stopping you in the street and coming up during the gym and stuff and you know I love you know it comes wi..."

"Austin I felt very I had a lot of social anxiety and I didn't go out much um because I didn't want to be recognized um I felt like I I just didn't want to be recognized I didn't want to be looked at I..."

"I rarely get come like I get come up to More by by women now than by men and I love that what was that path out of the there's a book I from a psychiatrist had on this podcast called The Path out of t..."

"cards of of actresses you you married around that time right 2019 yeah a lot of what I read said that that marriage had fallen apart because the attention you were getting was difficult for your partn..."

"Tick Tock is my favorite app and I think that I'm very lucky that Tech talk is just it's what it's where I spend the most time I I kind of just get it I get it it was very easy for me I love Tick Tock..."

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"little too sometimes even though yeah ten percent just listen to your gut and going back to the start of the conversation this is because you feel closest to knowing who who you are yeah yeah the most..."

"is that a stark contrast from the Sarah I would have met had I met you like 18. like I wanna if I like put that 18 year old Sarah there and I had them both side by side I'm guessing Sarah 18 wouldn't ..."

"doing things and proving [ __ ] to yourself yeah that's so important I was going to say this at the start of the conversation this idea of confidence people don't know how you said it like how the [ _..."