"could you do me a quick favor if you're listening to this please hit the follow or subscribe button it helps more than you know and we invite subscribers in every month to watch the show in person i f..."

"i tend to believe that people's family are their foundation and when i was reading through the story of your family in your early years actually seemed pretty idyllic yeah i mean we weren't my mum and..."

"childhood like more so than anything else like it's weird like i was in hospital a lot of my childhood and i never ever thought i was sick because my mom and dad never treated me as if i was like they..."

"of men you know and we grew up talking and i spent a lot of time with my dad when i was young and he used humor in his job and with us as me and my two sisters and his relationship with my mom she mad..."

"my dad is incredible at kind of balancing you're good at that too because which is where i get it from some of your hardest moments in your yeah i make a joke but i use it in a way to allow people to ..."

"there's that thing that you have where if you're really in that moment it's such a release you said you spent a lot of your time as a kid in hospital yeah what was the the first time you went to hospi..."

"um which would cause me to have like seizures and pass out um and have like it was just awful um so i was in and out of hospital a lot as a child it was weird like i remember being let out for the day..."

"you define yourself as an empath you said it when you came yeah for sure and even people that hurt me i feel bad for the people that hurt me because i look at why they've hurt me as opposed to the way..."

"and i woke up and i remember just sitting and watching him for hours and just listening to him and then the next morning i remember seeing his mum come in and just taking all the balloons and i said t..."

"more health stuff and experiences um but that was the most human thing i'd ever seen even though i wasn't conscious of the fact that it was how long did that last that the health issues in your sort o..."

"i'd cut my hair and i was a veto sassoon model and i was like you know i'm starting to feel like i can fit in and i'm not the sick kid that can sing you know and then i had a stroke when i was 17. and..."

"because like i'm grateful it happened because if those things hadn't happened in my life you know the many years the the uterus issues i've had the fertility thing the miscarriage like you grow in mom..."

"health has just always had my back when my life has gone like this it's always kind of going to take a second and for a long time i felt like i was cast with this spell that like every time i kind of ..."

"what am i not listening to like so i feel like that's my personal way of looking at it in my journey so like when you say you know how long was that for it's kind of been my whole life you know even u..."

"would see these things happen but i was on the street crying uncontrollably i felt like i'd my body had gone numb like i was just on the street and i i was standing there and i couldn't move i literal..."

"helped me but helped other people and i know that like going back to what you asked me before like i know that's so much of my purpose as much as hard as it can be in moments i get so much peace from ..."

"miscarriage like in the sense of the reaction of of going i must the show must go on i must i after that show i surrendered to my pain and for nobody else but myself and that's something that i've i d..."

"busy time for me it was right before bang bang and i was doing all these different shows and i basically would have this extreme pain like agonizing pain i would pass out it was awful and they were li..."

"look up and manage my pain and that's when i went plant-based that was you know years and years and years ago and it definitely helped and improved and i changed my lifestyle and kind of slowed my pac..."

"people eat or like staring at someone in the car next to you and knowing they're not going to look over and be like you know and so i remember coming here and just having that and then i didn't have t..."

"and you know like as when you first get somebody commentating on everything you do in r i was just like how do i how do i live unconsciously now like how do i go to the beach without feeling like i'm ..."

"but there are parts of it that are so toxic and unhealthy and so inhumane and no one has a lot of space to be um like to have any empathy for that and that and i'm not talking about all the time and j..."

"that was like here let me just be what they say i am because that's what people think i am anyway and even when i am nice like someone i remember going into a room and being like hi everyone and no on..."

"that's the worst i don't want to see it i don't want don't send me a link of me on the beach because i was there my friends and my family sending me links of people criticizing me have you seen this [..."

"a product of your environment you are a product of your environment and i see that in my my niece and my nephews you know like and all the young people i know and i watch my best friends and my close ..."

"in that time you've got record labels telling you presumably who you are who they want you to be not even you know what it's one thing i will say about my record label you know for as much as we you k..."

"with them for almost 15 years what i've struggled to find is an internal team like people that are immediately around me like an assistant a manager that kind of manager yeah managers assistant no the..."

"the surface and i know in my heart in my instinct i don't just trust my instinct i act on it and it was a big brave thing for me to do just to go guys i love you but i know this ain't right i'm moving..."

"it you know and i and and i just want a team of people that represent me even when i'm not in the room you know have you seen what you're looking for elsewhere i don't even know i don't even i don't k..."

"projection of their own fear that they can't deliver for you i guess you'd also rather fail at being yourself than succeed at being someone else as well right and i've succeeded at being someone else ..."

"to do a better job at making those decisions one of the reasons i ask is if you've seen it somewhere else because it's because when you're a obsessed person you're obsessed about your craft um i think..."

"i just i just want to sing and like really be in the mix and work hard like the fire in my belly now is like what do you mean by being relaxed it's weird when you've had success like people always say..."

"gown i'm in what am i doing here like i have those moments all the time and the perception and reality is such a weird like experience to have of what you think people think of you and then what they ..."

"head i think that i can give off that i am i'm grateful that i can sing and i'm grateful that i'm love to sing live like i love that i've never mind and i just that's not who i am i love that like i e..."

"a more of an enjoyable experience those four years that you referenced that you i don't know how to discredit disappeared what was going on when you disappeared oh my god what was going on i did the v..."

"where heel fits in my life thank you hill for making a product that i actually like the salted caramel is my favorite i've got the banana one here which is the one my girlfriend likes but for me salte..."

"problem just you know just very much he understood the industry and would always kind of give me advice and just not being able to grieve and like all of those things and was just going to go and i ne..."

"don't know who you think you are but you can't stop writing songs like this is what you do and i think i'd realized that really up until that point a lot of my successful music had been this kind of l..."

"not doing much you know i'd rather be by myself for a second and it'd be a bit chaotic and me learn and like go right what do i need what do i want what do i need what do i want that's one of the uh t..."

"if i was a fly on the wall in your wherever you were living during the pandemic what would i have observed i mellowed a lot in the in the pandemic i let go of a lot of things that i held on to as like..."

"have a handful of people that you realize that no one else that you have in your life give you that gives you what they gave you and you realize that you have to find that for yourself like that's the..."

"didn't know him because his legacy that's been a word that's been used a lot with him it's funny because the biggest legacy that i think he however many businesses he started and things he invested in..."

"to feel like you know i love to work hard but i also like people around me to have a life i was when you you know when i was re-reading through the the process you went through with um with your misca..."

"especially the the attempt in a family to try and create life and struggling and yeah you know so seeing that so closely and the experience you shared and the way you shared it and even listening to y..."

"she's like yeah it's still there and that's when i went onto the street and i cried and the man came up to me and said you know if this is happening because you're supposed to talk about this you're s..."

"tomorrow's show more than what is happening like i'm now so if you can hear my stomach i'm really hungry um it's like i need this no um i am i remember just going home and kind of not processing it an..."

"you almost don't want to talk about it because you need people to just to see it to know but it's such a it's such a it's such a trip you know and obviously everyone's experience is different because ..."

"sing to it every night and you know and so when i got home that night and i laid there i've never felt so lonely in my life and the empath in me was like how so many people experience this like it's j..."

"um it's almost a bit like you know when you're really it's this really stupid metaphor but when you're really excited for a holiday and then it gets cancelled and you kind of go yeah it's okay i don't..."

"it's interesting because up until dave passed passing i've lost people that i know of you know but like real close people like he was one of the first and the hardest part about for me like losing som..."

"home and when you're at home you want to be on tour and there's this like push and pull of like where do i belong like i want to keep moving but i crave stillness but when i'm at home it's too still w..."

"women have grown up with blogs and magazines and books and this that and the other and that's one of the things i loved about you and this is why i said yes to talking to you because men don't talk en..."

"and then obviously the baby was just such a huge part of who i want to be in my life and what i want to give to my children one day um i think that's why the grief is so present right now because i'm ..."

"people like that and i do believe that you're right when you said about expectation i think that when you've experienced i've had a handful of people in my career that have loved me and seen me and he..."

"family and he's so clearly still with you every day same with jamal and the baby all of them what do you like with letting people in having been through a lot of loss and these you know various situat..."

"grateful i even have one because some people don't even have one and they're the people that i cried for to because i think about how lonely they must be look at my life i'm so lucky and so grateful f..."

"but can actually do something to it and i think that my last public relationship um which one was that well it wasn't even that i wanted to wanted it to be public but the person was public no it wasn'..."

"happened that was there that wasn't like that's what it is now right so then when i met someone in the pandemic and who wasn't famous and i was very protective of that when then when we did get seen i..."

"looked like an old man that owned a boat that was wearing a wig like it was so bad and i was just like really guys this is the picture you're gonna use with both of us and like it was just terrible bu..."

"know and i may like and i may never know yeah like i just feel like love is a constant moving experience and i think that when you meet new people you always want to dumb down what you've experienced ..."

"confident to say something because i see them do it to so many women without knowing what they're internally going through i constantly write the line between not giving a [ __ ] and wanting to protec..."

"and acting yeah i'm acting right now um i really want to do stand up i mean me sitting at crime for the last three hours isn't giving that people that impression but knock knock um i yeah i definitely..."

"thank you thank you are you gonna write notes about me in your book now no actually this is part of a tradition we have here where the the last guest who you'll never know who they are writes a questi..."

"myself i think that's the biggest thing for me is i'm a very independent i've got i can do it i i don't need help i don't need support person that's [ __ ] like i need i need people around me that wan..."