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you said it happened by accident you said the songs just I guess got finished and in this day and age why hold onto them I had been working on the album for four years I didn't want to release anything that was mine just cuz I didn't
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feel like it was the right timing I learned a lot from the last album and I wanted to take what I've learned and turn it into something even better and I'm glad I did because this year everything kind of just started pouring out of me I I started saying things and
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in a way that I've never been able to articulate them before so it was actually exactly when it needed to happen be like I told you earlier we shot the videos just a week ago and that's really unheard of what got you to a place where you could start to tell
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your truth I have been in therapy for years I've also taken breaks and gone places to recollect my thoughts and my emotions and my well-being and but I've always been pretty transparent about what of what I've gone through I just I
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just choose how I'm gonna do it because it would be an authentic for me to just not say what I felt in the beginning of the year or last year or it just wouldn't seem real to me Luzi to love me right here beautiful video if you haven't seen you must go do
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it all shot on iphone we're proud to be able to play a part in that just a David Taylor and the whole crew yeah it's it's a beautiful honest piece of music and I wonder what your relationship is like when you're writing a song like that
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knowing that the kind of human being that you are with the level of passion that you instill in your fanbase and also the level of attention that comes with that if that ever affects your creative process I know you try to block
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it out but does it sneak yourself in I mean I spent years living in fear of speaking up or saying things and I guess that's just the people pleaser in me and there was a huge moment where I just I just kind of stopped caring and I can't
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tell you when that moment was I really can't but it's not that I'm trying to make it specifically about just one subject in my life it's more just how I embody all of the experiences into one we spoke a little bit about some the artists and the music that moved you
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when you were younger and you mentioned some real timeless influences bread Fleetwood Mac how does a young artist or young person who loves that kind of music find themselves in this whirlwind of fast-paced pop culture with it where
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it's bright and colorful and sparkly and smiley those are artists that break hearts my mom was in theater and she I mean she just had this this huge music library I mean from Ella Fitzgerald to Reba McEntire to you know then again
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going to Frank Sinatra the Eagles and all of that my mom Rolling Stones she was very much she's a song fan oh for sure and I definitely get some of that from her but then my dad was a DJ so he he would do all kinds of stuff and he was on the radio for a
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bit doing Tejano music and and so I had this experience of my life where I experienced the beautiful colors of music and where it can take you and I think it naturally happened for me I remember I wanted to be like Paramore at
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one point I thought this is my lane I feel it that lasted about three months with big Paramore fans here I literally love her so I guess we should focus on that song look at her now I mean that really is that that's a moment of absolute self empowerment you need to
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know who you are at that moment in time to make that song believable yeah it just got weird it just got really complicated and I started noticing that my life just became a story and it was entertainment and I was really I was I
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was just not okay with that because it was real and it was very real to me that's the time I needed to just say I'm not gonna be a part of this anymore how am I gonna not be afraid to share what I feel just because I'm mad at what
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the world is doing it's it's not really gonna get me anywhere and everything that I do is with good intention I'm gonna play you something right now which I thought is gonna qualify that now this is good so I'm gonna take my mics down
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for the purposes of it and then we'll reflect in a second but you know this voice it's the best thing she's ever done she came over she played me the video it's just I so proud of her she's been through so much I've watched so much happen in her
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life and had a front-row seat to so much and I'm so proud of her I'm really excited because when somebody has had great life experience has had you know really tough things they've had to go through and they can process that and
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make art that's gonna help other people that's what kind of song this is I'm stoked it's very sweet yeah yeah you've known each other for a long time yeah about 13 years a challenge in the triumphs of sharing these things with friends right I mean without them with a
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weaker I don't know and really don't what kind of friend has she been to you through those times amazing for sure she was frustrated when I was frustrated she was sad when I was sad um but more than anything my friends stood by my side
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when I think they visibly saw me in so much pain and they didn't want it for me but they sorry oh no it's um they never stopped loving me and I played her the song and and I played it with her mom and dad and I showed her the video and her mom and and
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Taylor started crying and it wasn't because the song was emotional it was just because the first thing they said to me was we're so happy that you're here yeah after seeing all of that this is such a cool moment and that's that's
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that's a huge thing for me so down to my friends back home my family my Papa crying saying I'm I hate that you went through what you went through it breaks my heart but I'm so proud of you so this is real life stuff so much of what you
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go through as a person ends up in these three four minutes long and what it takes to get to a point with that piece of music matters to you enough to share it yeah that's the topics I'm interested in you know I have another song that's
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strictly about vulnerability and that was a version of me actually having fun with it saying I could be knocked down repeatedly but I'm never gonna not be vulnerable and you know I always say this you know one of the worst moments of my life ended up being
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the biggest blessing that I've ever had I was set free and I and I think even from stuff that I don't ask what that was I did but here's the thing it's not anything like we're gonna dissect it's it's more my life it's more actually
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working since I was seven being away from my family moving from Texas to here experiencing Fame being awkward because you're growing up and I think I think I was scared of it and I probably hated most of it but with that time that I've been
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given I've just been able to come out on the other side and be okay and I don't really know how other than all the work that I did meaning friends therapy taking time off going back to Texas just enjoying what's right in front of me I
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don't crave needing more I don't need more of anything but it's it's actually been great because that means I'm doing something good and you know you don't know I can do you don't crave won't need more of anything like you don't crave bit like haagen-dazs I crave a swallow
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if we're talking about cravings of course I do I mean was the ice cream flavor rocky road standard wow you're really gonna hit me with that well man you got to go for like the deluxe edition with a little crunchy but the biscuit no
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because you can add brownies and you can add whipped cream and you can add whipped cream on your eyes i 100% do and I'm not gonna let you judge me for that I'm judging judge and I judge you and for the stain on your shirt nothing gets past you huh you